if i could turn back time....

music:

• ronan keating - iris
• beyonce - irreplaceable
• tina turner - simply the best
• brian mcfadden - real to me
• cher - if i could turn back time
• nelly furtado: all good things
• men at work: down under
• delirious: inside outside
• nickelback: if everyone cared

mood: confused & cold

yesterday i showed t. some photos of my childhood via webcam...
and i must admit that i miss these years a lot!!!
i had been such a happy girl....

im at work right now...and i really ask myself wtf im doing here!?!?!?

oh......radio plays the perfect song right now.....
cher - if i could turn back time

yes - if i could turn back time...i would change a lot of things!!!!!
i wouldnt sit in this stupid office now....doing an apprenticeship i dont like!!!!
ive always been a creative person....
my life had always been surrounded by music....different languages...travelling....and i always loved it to be on stage as an actress....

damnit - i want my life back!!!!!

i think its kinda weird that my parents didnt notice that i looked like a guy for maaaaany years...
that i even acted like one....
i had been very boyish....but also i had some girly years....
my parents must have been blind.....
they did NOT see that i turned to a bisexual .oO(shhhhhh....lesbian)

well...as i started dating my first girl...my mom suspected that something was/is wrong....
but still....they should have known earlier....just because ive been not very girly.....

ive been a bisexual .oO(shhhhhh....lesbian) for 4 years now.....and i like it the way it is....


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omg.......how adorable is that!!!!!
t. just wrote me a lovely text in german....
im soooooooooo damn proud of her!!!!!
it means a looooooooooooot to me that she tries to speak and write german!!!
it constantly makes my ♥ jump up'n'down!!

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x your fingers for me today...
i wanna go back on stage!!!
and i have an audition today!! :)